This has been an incredible adventure so far. I have lost my cool with people, been on the verge of tears with others, and have gone into silent stress comas where I speak to no one. Now, with two weeks to go, my piece has finished the dance and we are polishing steps. Seeing it come together has been the coolest thing of all; I’m sure in two weeks, once I see the entire show come together, that sensation is going to be heightened drastically.
I’ve had projects in my life I have completed and been proud of, but I think watching the show going from the planning stages to a final performance will be my biggest one yet. Never in my life have I been in charge of organizing over 100 students, and following up with nine separate performance pieces, all while working on a student run board with so many different personalities.
Stress and an adrenaline rush have replaced all the anxieties I had last week. My workouts are in full force, my diet has drastically changed, but there is still so much to get done. I’ve been motivated to get to the gym more often because I know it is the one thing that will bring my stress level down so I don’t snap at anyone again.
The list of things that need to get done runs through my head hourly. I trust the board and the students organizing their pieces to make it the best show possible. I already lined up someone in my piece to keep me from fully freaking out the day of the show, and he has promised to keep me from bursting into tears. I’m praying that the adrenaline will keep pumping throughout the six long hours of getting painted because if not there will be a big problem.
Dance steps, things to get done before the show and school work run through my head on a regular basis. These past few weeks have been the hardest ones I’ve experienced in college but I am loving it. I’ve had to have hard conversations with people, give tough love to friends, and organize and designate. It’s a good thing I can multitask. I can’t wait for these next two weeks. I am looking forward to the day of the show and this once in a lifetime experience!